Gred of Frenzship

actually in a bunch of Frenz,the mind of every1, sure has 1 gred..

Gred A- most best best frenz, wat secret also will tell him or her,other ppl also cant replace him or her.
Gred B- best frenz,2/3 secret tell him or her, but still have some secret cant share with u
Gred C- when sit together, many topic can share together.
Gred D- just simple frenz, when meet,just greeting.
Gred E- just very very simple frenz, but dislkie him or her..
Gred F- enermy,when meet, wont greeting..
start from form2, i always ask myself, in my frenz mind, wat gred of me inside their mind??

i always ask myself until now...i also cant confirm....

sometime i always admire other frenz like
xin yee n yee lin n kam kam..
bell n xiao thung...
~other ppl really cant replace..

some1 had ask me be4 again n again,.
y u always silent when u heard something tat u dislike by some1??
y u dun let her know, u really mind wat him or her talk..??
u know y...
coz i dun wan waste the chance tat i upgrate my gred inside my frnez mind..
coz i dun wan small happen to decrease our relationship..
cox i wan have good ending in my graduation.
but sometime i dislike wat i do...
just because wat i also b silent,some frenz increase his or her voice,wont mind i will hurt or not..just follow his or her feel..
but sometime i try to protect myself..
just let him or her think i had change my attitude after something happen..
haha...i really dun noe what i can to do..maaybe i cry, some ppl will think i very fake..

just give 1 example..
compare me with XXX..
if i said something u dislike to heard,u will scold me or ur face be dark..
if XXX said something u dislike to heard,u wont scold him or her, u just will share to other ppl to release gas..
sometime i think myself really so easy to bully..??or u really dun noe i will mind..

frenz,actually...i really mind....i really very very very mind......i really feel so hurt.....

but..
u all really dun noe...

i put my frenz in Gred A..is him or her put me in Gred A too.??hoho....i think inside all my frenz mind, i just only Gred B...how i m crzy with them, serious with them,i also cant change the standard...

maybe wai pin is right,
maybe i had my reason, so y i always have special action when i stay with frenz..
maybe this really real look of me..!!
maybe i just wan my frenz put me in Gred A...
maybe tat is my fake look..is it..??haha
en...i think now is the time tat i ned to accept the truth..something u try to get it,u really hardworking to sucess it..but...no "yuan fen", how u hardwork, the end also is fail..
i think i ned to change myself..be strong ..
be mature. .
.maybe suitable me..
..maybe i stay with frenz again, i will become like be4..
actually this blog topic, i put it in my heart so long time ago n ago....dun noe y,suddenly have mood to post it on my blog..maybe i really wan release something in my heart..start the new of me..

above wat i write, i just share feeling..hope if any my frenz have read, i hope can forget about it..i hope u all wont start to far away from me...if u really will mind wat i share at here, nothing i can say alr..
i just hope u put me in Gred F....