My Secret...

today is a sunny day....
feel so good n sunny mood..
i think today is a nice day..
will until the end of the day..
but my thinking is wrong..
suddenly...
u sms me...
dont know why..
i so happy..
maybe u less find me..
although is me start a topic...
chit chat wit u..
that feel so good..

But...
happy time is not so long..
feel so sad...
when u tel me 1 thing..
i realize that..
i dun wan to know this truth..
but this really is a truth..
what can i do..
only 1 way..
just accept it..

i cant tell u..
i m jealous now..
just only like normal..
joke with u...
suddenly feel so suffer in this atmosphere..
no mood sms wit u already..
use reason to stop our talk..

before is a nice day..
maybe the God want to accompany with me..
start raining now...

why...
i so depress now..
i ask myself many time..
many time ...
think so many thing..
sigh...
finally i know that..
and..
i also can determine...
what thing in my mind..
i confirm my answer..
rainning also stop in this moment...
next step what can i do...
only escape it...
become normal again..
and keep it in my deep heart..

maybe so many people will ask me what happen..
include my best frenz too...
but i only can tell u all..
sorry...this is my secret...